I n v i s i b l e

I attended the premiere of a movie I worked on last night. It was an invitational and only the family of a crew member is invited to watch. Two days ago I asked the organizing team if it’s okay that I’ll bring along friends. They told me that the premiere is basically for the viewing of family only. So, at that time, I thought I’d be going alone since my family can’t come. But Anne, a good friend of mine texted me that it’s okay to bring friends. So, I asked my close friends to come see an international indie movie I so put my heart into shooting. It is the first time it is shown to the world and I would have liked it if my family saw it even if they’d comment on it like they always do… They never liked any of what I do…but at least…they watched and supported me. But in the end, they never did.

I realized…I’ve been here a thousand times already. Since I was small, they never really like what I chose…be it in movie preferences, art or even stories. Years before, I already told myself that I should never expect much from them. But it’s hard…very hard to not CARE about what your family thinks. Maybe it was because they mean so much to me. I might not show it…and yes, I am guilty for not caring much about what’s happening at home sometimes. But you know… that’s just the way I am. I get lost in books I read…I revel in the movies I watch… I might not show much…but I do care what they think.

My mother told me, in one of our many arguments that they are proud of me. Oh well, they sure show it in a funny way – not giving a damn about where I am in my career and labeling me as an eccentric for not choosing a LOGICAL direction in life. Maybe…there’s a lot of MAYBEs because I don’t want to believe that they just don’t give a shit about my dreams…it’s frightening…and I know I’ll crumble… Well, it doesn’t really matter now since I always crumble with the way they treat my achievements. Maybe…

What they don’t understand is… I might follow what they want me to do…and do the things I want at the same time… But they can’t understand the logic of staring at a blank canvas for days, deciding where to lay your first stroke… They can’t. They call it folly – a waste of time. I call it passion. I call it a dream. A family friend once asked me where these ideas in painting come from… I don’t know, I answered. I just know what to do in that certain moment. And they just stared at me and shook their heads slowly.

Maybe I’m a little childish in treating this. Once more, I’m reasoning with myself. I don’t want to end up feeling sorry for myself. I am not sorry for choosing this life. I love my passion. I believe that God gave me this talent…and I sure as hell don’t want to waste it. I believe that I will do better things with this… I believe… And if it takes my whole family to treat me as if I’m invisible in their eyes, I accept it. They started doing that recently. No one cares as I eat breakfast and tried listening to their business talks. I wanted to bring up the premiere and to tell them that a lot of people liked it. But they didn’t even blinked when I said, “There are a lot of people watching last night…” They continued with their talk as if I’m not there. I tried to ask my aunt how was her friend who wanted to buy one of my paintings…but they didn’t even take a look at me.

I felt like my cousin. My cousin, who always seem to take this treatment since he seldom comes home in an early time and loves to play games… They’re dividing us pretty well – cutting us from the family. FINE. I can deal with that, is what others might say…and I was about to say it. But you know…I understand pretty well that they’re trying to show us their disapproval in a silent way. It’s great, isn’t it? That they want me to change… Is there a LAW that says only YOUNG PEOPLE MUST change for the betterment of the old ones? I can hear them now, “You’re saying that today…but when you get older…you’ll realize we’re right.” Yeah…yeah… The funny thing is, if I only want to secure my future – money and marriage, I can easily do that mind you… But I don’t know why I chose ILLOGICAL things… I don’t. I value things differently and I’m sorry for being strange… I’m sorry for you – having an alien child in the family. I wish I have a twin…or a brother…so that I won’t feel this guilt and pressure. I wish…I wish… But wishing is stupid and disappointing. Hoping…to no avail though…

If they’ll only accept me as a part of them if I say yes to managing the business…don’t you think it’s kind of unfair? They say that they’re not insulting what I do… Oh yeah…they’re not…verbally they don’t. But the looks and the feel that they give off need NO WORDS. So tell me what to do then… I now understand how it was for all the artists that have gone emotionally locked up and secluded in their own little world. One friend told me that I needed this – I need this HATE, this DISCRIMINATION, this PAIN… Perhaps she’s right… Maybe I need a little pain and suffering. With this, at least I feel a little close to what Christ was feeling…being discriminated and scorned…

Boy do I sound like a masochist! XD

ANBU FEST 2010 GENERAL GUIDELINES

GENERAL GUIDELINES FOR
ANBU FEST 2010

1. All people wishing to partake in ANBUFest 2010 must register for the event in advance at the registration desk with the organizing teams. Fill-in all appropriate/applicable information you are required of to ensure the traffic in the event proper.
2. Registration will officially start by 3:00 PM - 5:30 PM. Anyone who fails to register on the said time will not be allowed to participate in the games.
3. Submit weapon-crafts to the members of organizing team at the registration tables for inspection to ensure general public’s safety.
4. Entrants must be inside the cosplayer holding area 15 MINUTES before the event start time (individual/groups) they registered in. No changes in groupings will be allowed after the registrations end.
5. Group entrants are obliged to have a minimum of five (5) members and a maximum of ten (10).

COSPLAYER PERFORMANCE RULES

1. The ANBU Performance will take form of an onstage walk-on followed by a short performance of your choice. Individual/group cosplayers are allotted 30 seconds onstage time bearing the following in mind:

a. Skits / presentations must be no longer than 30secs. Performers are allotted 10secs to set-up and 10secs to exit in addition to the 30secs allotted.

2. NO leaping or climbing on or off stage.
3. Toy weapons/weapon crafts will be allowed provided they are submitted for inspection by the registration areas prior to the events. Any “live” weapons will result to immediate eviction. Also no food, animals or remote control devices are permitted.
4. Any sort of stage fighting/acrobatics is to be limited within the SAFETY LINE.
5. What goes on the stage with you comes off the stage with you. For safety reasons, things like confetti, fireworks, flash paper or other forms of pyrotechnics, rose petals, water and other small messy objects are strictly prohibited around the stage area.
6. Skit content must have a rating no higher than “PG-13”. ANBUFEST is an all-ages event. Any explicit swearing, nudity and obscene gestures and mannerisms are prohibited and can result in disqualification.

COSPLAYER OUTFIT RULES

Though some of the cosplay events at ANBU fest are judged, and therefore have more specific rules, every cosplayer must abide by the basic list of guidelines:

1. Cosplayers may have the liberty to alter/modify their ANBU suits provided that outfits should not be so revealing as to warrant indecent exposure charges. All body parts should be covered and not require constant pulling, tugging and straightening. A good rule of thumb is not to wear anything that cover less what you can wear in the pool or the beach.

2. During the Anbufest, participants are trusted to be responsible of their weapons and other accessories. In areas that are extremely congested and narrow (like in the booth/kiosk areas), entrants will be asked to modify their costume in public part of the event center; we realize that a lot of work has been put into the outfit. During the Cosplay event judging or if one is within the holding area, cosplayers are permitted to wear their cosplay in its original unaltered form.

A N B U F E S T 2 0 1 0

P R O G R A M M E

(so far since January 20, 2010)

February 13, 2010

2:00 – 3:00 PM Final Set-up in Events Area

3:00 – 5:00 PM Dragon Dance

Open Registration @ the Peacock Area

5:30 PM Program Proper @ the Events Area

Enumeration of Games & Contests

Live Feed of Sponsors

6:00 – 7:00 PM Introduction of Teams and

Individual Cosplayers & BB163 Kids (song number)

7:00 PM 1^st Game | CHARACTER IMPERSONATION (10ppl)

7:30 PM 2^nd Game | AMAZING ANBU RACE (start)

3^rd Game | ANBU THEATRE (start)

9:00 PM Live Feed of Sponsors

AWARDING:

Apple of the Eye |

Best Masked |

Amazing ANBU Race |

ANBU Theatre |

10:00 PM Closing

Respectfully yours,

MS ELISA MAGBANUA
TINTA|productions, Events Manager


NOTED BY:

MS KATZ TECSON
TINTA|productions, Team Leader

BLESSINGS

Cut my hair short today. I dunno...it was a spur of the moment...just planned it yesterday and CUT. It went well actually....


I have been very BLESSED. Actually...the COSPLAYERS here in Bacolod are blessed this year. I am so happy that sponsors came flooding in after a lot of struggle and despite it all, I am glad we struggled. I am very thankful namely to Jay Yip and her family for putting up with my requests. THANK YOU SO MUCH! The effen efforts of Elisa Nuble, Bian Uy, Sai Ng, Fu Javellana, the Balquin Sisters and the rest of the gang is more than enough to push me on even when I'm tired. This event started out as something that is insignficant to almost all the population in Bacolod City...but now...now it's different. People are slowly getting what COSPLAY is all about.

I AM GRATEFUL. I am very happy to meet Hitsuzen Inc last year. Very thankful that they're supporting the art as vigorously as any cosplayer can or even more. Thanks so much for your support, Elerem, Mac, Von, Ban & Po-kun. I am very grateful.

I HOPE YOU GUYS ARE READY FOR THIS...
TINTA|productions & Hitsuzen Inc.

POSTER, LAYOUTS & HELL

I have yet to understand why people won't move till a BOMB blows beside them... Yeah. I'm one of those people... LOL! I am practically in a RUSH right now with things that I left unattended for quite some time. This is not a habit actually...it was more because of the Holidays, Friends...and LAZINESS. I wanted to do these stuff a few weeks ago but was caught up in the holiday feel of things...awh the cool breeze...awh the lax environment...awh THE LAZINESS!

I understand that I'm now juggling two productions and are both due on the SAME MONTH!!! But hey...when the going gets tough...the tough goes... "PLANTS & ZOMBIES" (ehem!) I mean...GETS GOING....Gets Going! Tehehehe. . .

I'm ALERTING all theatre and dance fanatics to watch out for a GREEK Dance Musicale this February in the La Salle Coliseum, Bacolod. Judging by the venue, you can just imagine what kind of production this will be... ^__^ And I'm praying for the best.

I'm also inviting all the COSPLAYERS in Negros to check out the ANBUFest 2010 posters that will be out this week. Check 'em...check 'em and RALLY YOUR CLAN now!!!

And still,

katz tecson
TINTA|productions 2010

LOVE TEAM

It was amazing poking fun on Pollen & Jay2x earlier this morning...yeah...about 1am earlier... I'm about to sleep. It's moments like these that fades out the pressure as we prepare for the upcoming ANBUFest 2010. Two teams are collaborating (TINTA|productions & Hitsuzen Inc.) for this PIONEER project and I'm hoping that everything will be A-OKAY! I actually downloaded this photo from Von who sent me this cute pic of them...can you guys guess who's who??? ^_^ Btw, they're not men...one's a girl. Who is it??? XD

Oyasumi,

katz tecson
TINTA|productions

STAND FIRM

"I'll stand firm."

I have to say this LINE is overused by so many people in this world...and I'm one of them. In a world where only a few understood, a few had the courage to understand and a few had the balls to accept, it is very sad that sometimes...in this lonely journey we tend to lose to the realities. Art is sometimes obscure - it is to me at least. I often found myself wondering why I chose this path and yet, amidst all the BS and the insults, I still find myself crawling back into its welcoming arms.

2009 was a rewarding year. Being chosen as one of the 20 artist for the Sungdu-an 5 Exhibit for the National Museum was amazing, working with famous directors is very enlightening and I am very honored. I have accomplished much that sometimes, I feel so blank these days. It's not that I'm tired. In fact, I'm hungry...more hungry than I could ever be when it comes to new ideas. But again, I think the Lord is teaching me patience. I have been impatient recently. I recently threw my regular job and started practicing my art - my passion. And sometimes I couldn't deny that I'm missing my daily office BS, my late reports and routine schedules. Adjusting is a bitch.

Being alone keeps you thinking. Being alone keeps you dreaming. One only has to choose which to take. On my part, a little of both. Scratch that - more on dreaming. LOL. I love to dream. And when I dream, I love to think...of ways how to make that dream come true...

I'm already 26. For practical people like my family, it's absurd to love cartoon animation at this age. When they look at me sometimes, I think that they're branding me as blasphemous. LOL! But that's just it, right? I still love animation no matter what they say. I still love art despite their insults. I will paint and design until my hands bleed. STANDING UP to what you believe in is hard. And it is even harder when you're scraping for money.

Then the question which everyone dreads comes to you: WHY NOT LEAVE YOUR PASSION? Oh yeah, been there a couple of times. And truthfully, I've been running away. Took several jobs not related to art at all. But in the end, not one made me happy as I was when I finished my first painting. Nothing beats the praise of an artistic mentor. Nothing can compete with the feeling of having your very first exhibit. These...these are gifts I will remember till the day I die. And right now, though I'm doubting my ability and I'm slowly crossing this tightrope...I won't back down. This time, I'll STAND MY GROUND. For sure, for sure....

COSPLAY FOR A CAUSE

Creating a Cosplay Team is definitely not my priority. But then again, as the years pass by, I realized that it's not just about what I want anymore. The team longed for it. It? -,- Sadly, I can't say NO. Why? I'll be another 'practical' parent if I deny a child's dream. And I do not want to crush a dream. No, not me. I am very thankful to the TINTA|production members for being my support, for listening to my boring sermons and for being patient. I hope all those are worth it. ^_^ (looks at members smiling...) And hey, I got the hang of it...

The team participated in a feeding program a few days ago. That time I realized that, my hobby (cosplaying) is a very extravagant one. Well, actually I already know that before that's why we helped BantayBata last 2008. But I was reminded once more. More than loving the art, I'd love to help the kids who are most unfortunate. These kids who need love and attention...who need food and clothes. I was never left alone when I was a kid. Seeing them on the wet sand with no piece of decent clothing looking up to me as they smile breaks my heart. T_T they still smile....

Talking with the team about this, we decided to help out and participate every year. And that's why the ANBUFest 2010 on FEBRUARY 13, 2010 have its purpose too.
1. To gather cosplayers
2. To promote cosplaying
3. TO RAISE FUNDS for BantayBata 163.

I am calling all cosplayers to please...please do the same. Let's not only walk the dream...let's do more than walking the dream...

katz
TINTA|productions 2010